I went to northern California this past week due to a not so gravy situation. My aunt passed due to a heart attack at the ripe age of 39. She was a very happy outgoing and overall loving person. She has had a life full of medical problems and is finally at ease in peace.
Spending time with family and away from work gave me a lot of time to think. About life mostly, like what am I doing, am I happy, what can I change, if I were to pass today how would I feel about my journey.
I came to a few conclusions, first of all I am very satisfied with what I have done and where I am going. Although I am doing nothing but working my life away at the present, I am okay with it. I know that everyone has to do things that they don’t want to do at some point in their life, and I would rather that time be now rather than later. Besides its not like I HATE what I am doing it is just boring sometimes and has its days. But this is true for any job I would get, no matter what it is.
As for what can I change, I can change a lot of things. Starting with making sure that I am not rushing things and am able to stay open minded so I don’t miss anything. I am very excited for the new year so I can give myself a few more goals to meet. I find pleasure in accomplishing personal tasks. I also need to keep my cool more often and think about things more before any action is taken. Overall I need to make sure that I am happy with every decision I make and have no regrets in life. As it stands now I have no regrets about anything in my past, and I like that.
This post is more of just a ramble of mine but thats okay with me, haha….
Wow its crazy how a close death makes you think about everything completely different, I mean we are not guaranteed anything in life, not even another waking breathe.

Lately it has been very hectic in my neck of the woods. I have been trying to focus as much attention as possible to about five different projects (including school). It is difficult no doubt, but I am managing.
As a small business owner I never could have imagined all the hassles and struggles would be this overwhelming. I mean I didn’t come into this blind by no means, I totally understood that I was about to take on the world. Still its simply more than I can fit on my plate. 

